1st January 2009

I love the first day of the year.
My last words for 2008 as I stared into the black starless skies were "Another year, another day."

Despite the cheers brought to me on the other line (allowing me to draw up a mental image of the crowds, the fireworks, the smiles etc), I felt very wrapped up in my room,my own world.
Yes, I was uncontrollably held close by another soul from the last 30 minutes of a year to another.
I wondered what is the significance or rather what does it signifies for/to me? Staring at the 'Plans 2009', I sighed warily.



Back to the first day of the year. Funny how I often thought (& thought I remembered so) that it would always drizzle lightly in the warm sunshine. Like a welcome dance for the new year but I've yet to see any drop of anything from the sky but many fluffy clouds forming their lines.

It's warm,alright. Maybe I remember the weather wrongly. Remembering things ain't my exact strength to begin with.



And on the word 'funny', it is kinda amusing that how I had read the word - 'Goals' to 'Plans' and didn't realised my mistake. I wasn't NOT paying attention to my message but as if something else obscured my vision, I just read it like that.

I woke up at 9am sharp. I thought I could use more sleep. Obeying to my alarm is not a strict rule on rest days. Oddly my body managed to restrain it's little fatigue and I actually sprang awake.

(Ok this is digressing but I have to add on to this.)
I continued reading Twilight and finished it. The story itself is so much more intense & actually really sexily romantic. If you have watched the movie, you may like the little romance here and there but I thought it was surely lacking of alot of punches in it. So the book is so much more. I feel silly to be involved with a teen romance vampie novel but now I kinda wanna buy the rest of it.

So after finishing the book with little efforts, I read through those new year smses from my friends again. It was only then I realised that John said 'Goals', not 'Plans' in his sms.
I stayed a minute confused cos' I was somewhat sure that I read 'Plans' but then I thought the reading mistake is not something uncommon for me(I often subconsciously misread alot of words.)

Plans, somehow & somewhat work better for me. Knowing that I won't stick to my goals & resolutions, plans...seem...okay to keep up with.
=)

I went ahead to meet Yvonne & Shireen after work yesterday. We were 'dick-nifing' (Come to think of it, what a word for a lady but you think coming to 25 years of my life, I would still act like a demure nun?) & laughing our heads off.
A great way to destress. With men-hater girlfriends, jokes, coffee & love. (Though I know I look unalarming tired yesterday. I realised I barely sleep well the night before.)

Before I met them, I visited Harry Potter's library. I know at the rate I am reading, Twilight won't be seeing it's next twilight (lame...) so I went off to buy more 'spells'.
The uncle grows to like my face (but of cos' -whoever goes in his store every other week and donate $10-$30 each visit?)

It's not that H.Potter library is running outta books for me to buy but I am ashamedly not that knowledgeable about books. I need to know what I wanna read before I buy them. Ok, a few of mine were spontaneous buying but I had good feel about them before I buy.


So I ended walking out with yet another 3 of Nicholas Sparks' novels. What am I doing? As if I didn't know better what would happened in Sparks' stories and I am still buying?

I wouldn't say I am very pleased with my choices but I don't think I would be that deadly disappointed either. With Richard Gere on the cover, I lightly doubt so. Did I mention I like movie-covered books?

I do not know when did I started this reading frenzy but it seems like a good way to tranquil myself in a world that no one sees.

I hope this year is fueled with courage for me. To make changes, to stick to my 'plans', I would need courage more than I need food. For all you know, do not encourage me. For some of which that I may eventually decide, would inevitably hurt you. But trust me, if I ever do so, I did it with good intentions.

First day of the year. Make y'er living.